Storage this!!

 

OMG, I so needed this like a year ago! LOL. It's a handy The First Years Milk Storage Organizer. For when you freeze your breastmilk. Sad story of the week: so I had the very last two, two I say, Medela plastic freezer bags (I promise I don't work for Medela, I just love their breastfeeding products so much!) with 5 ounces each of my breastmilk that I was saving for my girl. Well, I decided it was time to give her those last two bags ever in her life, so they didn't go bad. (Frozen breastmilk can only last 6 months in the freezer.) Well, I thawed one out and fed it to her in the evening, and she made this fuchi face and gave it back to me. I smelled it and sure enough, it was bad. Oh no! And the other one was bad too! Boo hoo hoo! It was devastating. Oh, sigh. That's how it is with breastmilk though. It's so natural that you never know, sometimes they do go bad in the freezer or fridge. I had that happen a few times throughout this past year.

But oh well, I have a baby, I don't cry over spilled milk anymore! And regarding this handy caddy for freezer milk storage, I'll buy it for the next one I guess....I hope ;-)  Because for now, I am done done done with breastfeeding! Hurray! So storage this, suckers! Hey, I made it 13 months breastfeeding okay, I can have my moment. Actually, I am finally having my moment. As you know, I've had such a hard time letting go of breastfeeding. I soooo wish I could keep doing it for another year. But the reality is, that my body is done. Over it. Enough already. Finito. And it has now been around 5 days I think that I have not breastfeed my girl AT ALL. Not even once, not even at night. It was hard at times to resist the temptation when she would pat on my chest because she wanted to nurse. And she would cry and pout, and I would take around 10 seconds to really think about this. Stop. Breathe. I can do this. Then I would just pick her up and take her to her toys or her books and we would play together and she quickly forgot about "mama." I just had to do it. It was time. And for the first time today, I'm feeling really good about it. The other night I was at a wrap party for a writing project that just finished shooting, and as I was about to take my first sip of my house margarita on the rocks with salt, mm mm, a friend of mine asked "Are you still breastfeeding?" And I stopped for a few seconds then realized, "No. No, I am not breastfeeding anymore." Wait a minute!! I did it! I gave it my absolute best for the past 13 months and I now finally let go. Cheers! Gulp. Gimme anotha'! I have a slight ray of light coming in through my soul that is slowly making my body feel free. A whisper that wants to scream...so long suckers!!! 

But don't worry, I'll still be around updating you on all the latest and greatest on breastfeeding and on the toddler years, which I am currently on. And I will be rooting for you on your breastfeeding journey and waiting by the sidelines with water bottles for you! You can do this I believe in you!! Don't give up because one day, you will miss this wonderful bonding with your bambina/o, trust me on this one! Oh, and operation wean baby from the bottle: epic fail. Haven't been able to do it, but I am working on it diligently. As you know, when I set my mind to do something, I do it. So, hey, chica, give me that bottle!